Freedom from Darkness

By Ashrei (Ima Sari Wisenthal)

Freedom from Darkness - AI generated art

A promise of freedom You offered me,

Tinted illusions with the pain that You breed.

An idea of hope You lay before my hands,

To take all You can and demand what is beyond. 

A glimpse of a path to escape all this sorrow, 

Which You cover in thorns even when the path is so narrow. 

An invitation to pursue a desire for peace,

Surrounded by Your darkness and poisonous hiss.

A peak to a future enraptured with light,

Too distant to shield me from the wrath of Your sight. 

A lie of kindness, a delusion of love,

A shelter that's broken from the weight of all You have.

You test me and feed me with endless temptations,

To hope, to love, to light, to live, to give my affection.

As delicate as a tear, slowly I am forming, 

You could keep me safe, but instead You control me.

On the edge of life, as I walk on its tip,

I walk so delicately on the spine of Your Winds.

A counsel is missing in my time of need,

You abandoned me in darkness, tell me what was my sin?

To the weight of Your allusions I will give in,

Take me, G-d, for I cannot bear this suggested pain.

Your dagger has pierced me, to Your test I surrender, 

Bring me home to Your embrace, light my life into freedom.

Arouse my strength, towards the darkest escapes, 

Free me from the shackles of torment, of deceit, of this shame.

Appease my heart, remove these burning eyes from my face. 

Console me and drag me to a bottomless pit, in the darkest of places my soul will come free.

In Your darkness my freedom is finally formed,

Only in that depth can my soul change its cords and find a home.